My very own PT. Sort of.

So I had my first session with an actual personal trainer today. I had no idea what to expect, whether they were going to just gently talk me through each part of the equipment and see how much I could do or whether they were just going to throw me in at the deep and see what I could do.
They did the latter.
And it hurt. A lot.
I started on (what I think was) the cross-trainer. I had to do 5 minutes on that. Now, I know what you're thinking. '5 minutes? Pah, that's easy.' But believe me, it is not! I was knackered. The incline was altered so I was working more muscle groups and I couldn't let my rpm get underneath 120, I was averaging about 130 but it was tiring! After that I moved on to the 'lat pulldown machine' (or something), had to add to the weights too coz they were too light (I love that I'm still pretty strong, despite being a fatty!). Then it was ... cycling I think. Had to up the resistance slightly but its so not the same as cycling round the roads. Its harder! Which is weird, coz I thought with it being stationary, it'd be easier coz of no hills, stop/starts etc but nope, hurts more!
After that was bicep curls and dips, again, had to go for the slightly higher weights coz the lighter ones were too easy. (I may regret all of this tomorrow!) I think I may have hurt my wrist, but this happens a lot anyways, hope its gone again by Wed. Penultimate work was on the leg press and leg curl machines, I currently have a hot water bottle across my thighs so I'm guessing that suggests how that goes! Finished up on the treadmill. PT says 7 minutes walking to finish off, to which I think "Pah, is that it? I can do that no problem." Until he whacks the speed and the incline up. Walking is not easy when its constantly uphill and fast people!
But you know what? I loved it. I loved the little bit of praise I got from the PT when I told him the weights weren't enough, that it was too easy, coz he said people always tell him when its too heavy but never want to push themselves. I take pride in that sort of thing. I will push myself, I will try my hardest. And as much as it hurts, I'd do it all again tomorrow. Because after years of moaning and complaining about how much I hate my body, I'm finally doing something about it, and like I keep saying, I am going to do this.
No-one can do it for me. And clearly the time is now right.
Keep on supporting me people, it really does help me!

Official gym bunny.

So, I did it. I joined the gym. I went for my induction yesterday which consisted of signing stuff, filling out a health assessment form, having my measurements and weight recorded (Eek!) and getting shown how all the cardio machines work.
The place is small, but the people that work there actually seem genuinely interested in you, well, me. They're friendly and welcoming, which is a massive contrast to the only other gym that I have been a member of, where they showed me, vaguely, how the machines worked then left me to it. I ended up googling a lot and devising my own workout programme to follow. Needless to say I didn't go there for long.
My first proper workout appointment was meant to be happening right now, but it ended up that the kids stayed with me so I had to cancel it. Hopefully going to be able to reschedule tomorrow but I'm a little apprehensive to do so in case I get let down again. I don't want to mess them about, it should be ok ...
I asked the trainer about the running too. He said how he does very little running and not much cardio at all, tends to do more incline walking as that's a better fat burner (or something), he obviously knows what hes on about too, coz he is buff. He has these crazy big arms that I think I actually swooned over (secretly of course!) and you can see that he is tight. I never used to like muscly guys but seems my tastes they are a-changing! Purely for ogling purposes you understand.
In other news, I'm feeling kind of guilty coz Ive just eaten three pieces of thick toast with my beans. Best of Both stuff but still, I haven't had bread for a good few days, which to most people doesn't sound like much, but considering I could easily eat 6 pieces or more per day, then its a small victory. I'm not going to let it get me down though, Ill just be sure not to let it happen again.
I'm not going to become some sort of diet nazi like, far from it, but I clearly have to make more of an effort and exert more willpower. Which I can do. And stop linking my emotions to food, or at least using that as an excuse!
Like I said, I can do this.

Measurements: Week 2.

Well. I have just taken my measurements, I'll post them then discuss!
Bust - 40 inches
Waist - 38 inches
Hips - 42 inches
Thigh - 26 inches

As you can see I haven't really changed much but I'm absolutely ecstatic about that one inch. It proves that what I'm doing really is making a difference. Even if it is only a small one.
I'm not doing this for a quick change, this is a long-term, full lifestyle thing that I want to change. I don't just want to be skinny for summer, although that would be a bonus, I want to be skinny forever.
So if it takes 6 months, if it takes a year, it doesn't matter. As long as the results are coming in, and I'm not killing myself to get those results then I'm one happy bunny.
I made my decision about the gym too. I'm going to join. I've worked out the finances so I won't be struggling when I do join, I'm not being stupid, not point giving myself more stress. And I'm quite excited. I definitely feel that I'm properly ready this time.
I will do this.

Decisions ...

So Ive been thinking about joining a gym. And one has opened literally over the road from where I live. I went in today to ask about programmes and prices etc. Turns out they run this 6-week programme. Basically, you tell them what your goal is, and they help to get you there. One personal trainer session per week, they advise with nutrition too. You can go as often as you like. They do 'team-building' stuff too, like members nights out or bowling etc. All this for £30 per month.
I'd be a fool not to wouldn't I?

7 Ways.

So I'm going to outline my plans and goals for this new healthy lifestyle. I found this website as I was googling and following links and ended up on a site called 'zenhabits', I again, followed a few links and found '7 ways to build the exercise habit' which looked like a good idea. So that is what I am going to do. Except for number 6 which is to find someone to exercise with. I think for the most part, I'm better exercising alone. I'm very competitive so always want to do better than my 'partner', and I tend to rub it in a little bit if I am better, and sulk if I'm not. I do compete against people that don't realise they're competing though. When I was swimming, I kept racing people even though they didn't know. It helped me push myself a little further though so that'll do.
Aaaaanyways, my 7 ways start with:

1. Set Your Goal: My ultimate goal is to get a body similar to the one that I had when I had before the kids. Ive been told that my body has changed etc. etc. but that doesn't mean that i cant lose the weight and tone up.
   A more short term goal for me is to drop at least 2 dress sizes. I'm currently a size 16, so a size 12 and under would be awesome. I plan to do this in a healthy way though, using an improved diet and exercise. Never been on an actual diet in my life and I'm not about to start now.
   
2. Set A Deadline: This is a difficult one. I don't have a deadline as such because I plan on this being a lifelong thing. But I guess if we're talking dress sizes, Id like to say by my birthday which is the 2nd of July.
   
3. Make A Plan: Well, my plan is as Ive said earlier, healthy eating and exercise. So far I have been cycling a lot and that's pretty much it. My plan is to up the cycling, do more interval training and more distance work. I also want to start doing different types of exercise, more swimming and yoga and also start going to the gym again.
   As for the eating, I need to do some research into the right types of foods Ill need for the type of exercise and weight loss plan that I'm doing. I know whats healthy of course but I'm sure there's a better way of doing it.
   
4. Exercise First Thing In The Morning: This is a difficult one. As the kids get up so flaming early as it is, it'd be hard to drag myself up any earlier. It would be nice to get a little yoga in before I get going though. Ill have a think about this one!
   
5. Stick To Your Plan: This is going to be my most difficult step to carry out. I'm loving the cycling and the exercise but I know I'm easily distracted. I will need support and encouragement and would appreciate anyone reminding me why I'm doing this!
   
6. Train With Someone Who Has The Exercise Habit: Yeah, like I said earlier, this one isn't applicable to me. I haven't found anyone that has the same sort of competitive spirit as I do so would be a waste of time trying.
   
7. Be Confident: Apparently it takes 30 days to build the exercise habit. And if I had a regular week then maybe this would be true, but I feel that Ive picked up the habit already. I'm always itching (not literally) to get out on the bike whenever I have a free day. I feel my attitude has changed this time, like I'm actually going to do this. Basically, I'm fed up of being fat and unhealthy.

Bring it on.

Tirrrrred.

I'm kind of knackered today, I'm putting my despondent mood down to that. Aside from my current mood, Ive had a fairly good day.
Dropped all the kids off at school, and they were getting picked up by someone else so I had a free day (until 3:30ish anyways). I decided to take myself off for breakfast, (which did happen to be a fry-up but it is Fryday ... *watches tumbleweed*) and then swimming. I had considered a yoga class as I have found out that there is one near me that runs open classes on a Friday morning, but I decided that I should get a little more fit and flexible before I attempt a class. But its good to know its there.
So, I defuzzed, wrestled my swimming costume on and cycled down to the baths, 1.63 miles apparently, according to Cyclemeter it took me and hour and 25 minutes but that was actually coz I forgot to hit stop, it really doesn't take me that long! So the water was a little cold but that spurred me on to get moving. Felt a bit of a twat stretching but Id rather that than pull a muscle again, the amount of times Ive pulled my adductors (one of them anyways!) whilst swimming is ridiculous. It was in between school kid time so was pretty quiet. Ended up swimming 34 lengths of the 25m pool, which Ive worked out to be just over half a mile. I was pretty impressed with myself. And it was hard! I always think of swimming as an easy thing, but a couple of times I was actually out of breath and my heart rate was up to 138 at one point, this is clearly something that I want to improve on.
Quick cuppa after I was done, then cycled home. I took the 'scenic' route which was basically 1 1/2 miles out of my way to make the route longer, ended up doing 3.07 miles, so about 4.7 miles altogether.
Not bad going considering a few weeks ago I was doing bugger all.
So yeah, that was my exercise for the day. I had planned on cycling a little further but tbh, I was tired! Apparently I've burned around 600 calories today so I think I've done enough.
Yoga tomorrow, a few rounds of sun salutation until my muscles burn should be enough for a 'rest' day.

Exercise.

Exercise for today has consisted of about 40 minutes cycling at various paces. Averaging around 10mph. It was bloody hard going cycling into the wind at times. Ended up going about 6.3 miles, which was taking me an hour a few weeks ago, so my fitness is already on the up.
I'm getting a bit bored of cycling around where I live tho so will have to start going for a specific goal instead of just riding around aimlessly.
That's tomorrows job!

Weight loss and healthy eating lifestyle change type thing.

• Bust - 40 inches
• Waist - 38 inches
• Hips - 42 inches
• Thigh - 27 inches

Yikes. Its kind of scary and real when I write it down like that. My thigh measurement is the same as my waist used to be when I was younger.

So, what I'm planning on doing, is writing this weight loss down so its there in front of me in black and white (or whatever colour I choose for my font!) Ive made a bit of a vague start as I'm cycling as often as I can now. But if I'm not backing it up with eating more healthily then its basically a waste of time.

I'm going to record my measurements weekly and will add in weight whenever I can. I don't have a working set of scales at the moment and tbh, I'm not sure I even want to know. I might put on some light clothing and go weigh myself in Boots.

I'm also going to record my exercise and possibly include a food diary too. I think if all this stuff is there, and I look at it every day then it will make a difference.

That's the idea anyways. Lots of encouragement and support would be greatly appreciated an all.

Wish me luck!