I am here

• Bust - 38 inches
• Waist - 34 inches
• Hips - 38 inches
• Thigh - 22 inches
• Upper arm - 12 inches

Ok, so these compared to my last recorded (here) measurements mean that I have lost a total of 7 inches since October, and a grand total of 15 inches since I first started the measurements (May last year).
Now while I am very pleased with this progress, I feel I need to step it up a gear. Or probably a couple of gears. At first I wanted gradual progress and like I said, that's great, but I want more. I want to be fit. I want to be healthy. And the more I gain strength and lose weight the more I want.
I see pictures of these fit women. Strong, powerful women and I remember being one of those. I want that back and more. I have a picture on my phone lock screen that says: 

"There comes a point in life where you either accept whatever you're doing and just exist, or stop talking about what you used to be and do something completely different."

 I have it there to remind me to not just look back, but to remember that I will be stronger now. I can regain the strength that I had but it will be more because of how much more I have lived since then. It reminds me to look to the future and to look at it in a positive light.
Ive been saying for months that I can do this, and even though I knew that I could, I didn't really believe in myself 100%
But now I do. The last few weeks seem to have brought about a huge change in my outlook on life. I actually believe part of it has been a 'fake it til you make it'. I told myself pretty much every day that I could do it. I have support from so many sources, telling me that I can do it. And now I know that I can.
I strive for more. I strive for better. I want to be me, but better. And I will be. Now I know, I will be.
There's a song by the Foo Fighters that I listen to a lot, because the lyrics ring so true. Its called 'Walk' and the chorus is like this:

"I'm learning to walk again. I believe I've waited long enough, where do I begin? Learning to talk again. Cant you see Ive waited long enough, where do I begin?"

Its so perfect for the way my outlook has changed and evolved over the last few weeks. I'm not going to post the whole song because that just gets boring, you can go listen to it yourself if you want to! But so many little things are encouraging me to do what it is that I want to do. And these little things may not seem important, but all the small things add up and they help keep me on the right track.

I am back, and I am going nowhere!