Well this has to stop.
My last post was all about me changing again, about me getting back on the right path and what have I done? Absolutely not a single thing.
I have just eaten chips and curry, and now I feel massively unhealthy, fat and weak-willed. And I feel like that because that is pretty much exactly what I am right now.
I have no excuses. I have no reasons. I have nothing. I've done nothing. No exercise, no restrictions. I've eaten whatever I've wanted and chosen badly. I haven't been to the gym, or for a run or even cycled anywhere in the last few months.
That self-given goal is still there but I have done quite the opposite of what I wanted to do, towards it.
Every day for the last few days, weeks in fact, I've promised that 'tomorrow' will be the day. Its always tomorrow.
I want it to be tomorrow though. I don't want to feel this disgusting any more. I'm going to take photos and measurements tomorrow morning. I may or may not post them, depends on how ashamed I am of the numbers and pictures. Although that may well push me in to doing something about it.
I know exactly what it is that I have to do, and it's small steps, but I need to take the small steps in the right direction and I absolutely haven't been.
School runs and times are all settled now. My uni work is going well. I have run out of excuses. There are a billion resources out there that can help and support me with my journey and I should take advantage of them.
I also need to get off my fat arse and go for a run. It really is that simple.
I'm not promising anything, as I've broken any promise to that end that I've made lately, but tomorrow I really will try to stop being so lazy.
Once again, I'm going to ask for your help. Shout at me, tell me I'm fat (seriously, I need to hear it, and its not being mean because its true, Remind me why I want to do this, and point out how much better I felt when I had lost a stone the last time.
This isn't a fad diet or a quick fix, this is yet another lifestyle overhaul. Other things in my life are falling in to place, its only right that this one follows suit.
No more excuses.
